Monday, December 16, 2013

O Tidings of Comfort & Joy






God rest ye merry, gentlemen – Let  nothing you dismay 
Remember, Christ, our Saviour – Was born on Christmas day 
To save us all from Satan's power  When we were gone astray 
O tidings of COMFORT and JOYCOMFORT and JOY 
O tidings of COMFORT and JOY

From God our Heavenly Father – A blessed Angel came;
And unto certain Shepherds – Brought tidings of the same: 
How that in Bethlehem was born – The Son of God by Name. 
O tidings of  COMFORT and JOYCOMFORT and JOY 
O tidings of COMFORT and JOY

And when they came to Bethlehem – Where our dear Saviour lay, 
They found Him in a manger, – Where oxen feed on hay; 
His Mother Mary kneeling down – Unto the Lord did pray.
O tidings of COMFORT and JOYCOMFORT and JOY 
O tidings of COMFORT and JOY

Now to the Lord sing praises, - All you within this place, 
And with true love and brotherhood – Each other now embrace; 
This holy tide of Christmas – All other doth deface. 
O tidings of COMFORT and JOYCOMFORT and JOY 
O tidings of COMFORT and JOY


The good news of the Savior's arrival is truly comfort and joy to the heart of those who are waiting for Him. To my many friends who are struggling right now, and to myself as well, may we find COMFORT and JOY in the Father's gift to us: Jesus! 

Merry Christmas Friends!  


Tuesday, November 26, 2013

A Little Gratitude Goes a Long Way

He was tempted, but he didn’t get in the pickup and head west in his own cloud of rebellious dust. He was brave and he stayed everyday. He went out and did his work and he gave thanks when it made no sense because his God knows no bounds. God had to be in the hard, so he’d give thanks in the hurt – that he hadn’t been left alone, had never been left alone.

He opened his hands. He received what God gave – and he gave thanks. His life opened – and he got joy.

He’d let himself be broken up like a field. He let himself be made soft and open. He’d let himself be tilled til there was harvest….

And he lay there in black and whispered how he could still see: Thanksgiving to God is the only thing that heals our view of the world…

No matter what we’re facing, there are always only two roads: thanksgiving to God or dismissing of God…

No disaster, no storm, no cancellation, no termination, no catastrophe would stop them from giving thanks…

No matter where they were, every thanksgiving always brought them home —-giving thanks always bringing you home to the heart of God.

 - Excerpts from Anne Voskamp’s blog A Holy Experience - Ending the Stealing of Thanksgiving: A Parable

I love some of the words from the latest blog entry of Anne Voskamp. I feel such gratitude and thankfulness these days and it has amazed me what a bit of gratitude can do for my soul! 

Maybe I should be a bit more worried than I am about my current financial situation but there is a deeper part of me that wants to sit in the gratitude of what God has done for me over the past few months. There is fear for what the future holds but not panic, at least not yet.

I think the overwhelming gratitude I feel offers some solidness in my soul. God has been patient, gracious, forgiving, merciful and ultimately giving. He held the plans of the last few months in His hand. Why shouldn’t I sit in the gratitude of it? Trusting Him with the future is what allows me get up each day. It is what stills the panic when it comes. His hand is in it, it was His plan for me and it will be His plan for me. I find such rest in not having to the answers.

I know it will require movement on my part; that I must do all the things searching for a job requires of me. But I control so very little in the end, only He knows the plans He has for me.

I want to trust Him with the future. To wait patiently. To not settle for something less out of fear? But what if it really isn't something less. I know I can be resistant to change and I long not to avoid an opportunity or something that would stretch me?

May God continue to be patient, gracious, forgiving, merciful and giving. May I continue to turn my face toward Him, trust Him for my future and be thankful for His plan.

Happy Thanksgiving 

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

What I have Learned Over the Past Several Weeks

ABIDE
Stay in relationship with Him & with others even when it feels painful and hard

REPENT
Simply repent of my stubbornness, when I don’t know how plead with God to be broken

BELIEVE
Know without a doubt I am loved by Him and by others and that they both want good for me

DREAM
See beyond today and when I can’t get past today let others dream for/with me

SACRIFICE
Be willing to give up something today in order to have something better tomorrow

STRETCH
Risk taking one step at a time even when it feels out of my comfort zone

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Refocus on Him

"Go gently through this day, keeping your eyes on Me. I will open up the way before you, as you take steps of trust along your path. Sometimes the way before you appears to be blocked. If you focus on the obstacles or search for a way around it, you will probably go off course.  Instead, focus on Me, the Shepherd who is leading you along your life-journey. Before you know it, the "obstacle" will be behind you and you will hardly know how you passed through it.

That is the secret of success in My Kingdom. Although you remain aware of the visible world around you, your primary awareness is of Me. When the road before you looks rocky, you can trust Me to get you through that rough patch. My Presence enables you to face each day with confidence."

 "Jesus Calling" Enjoying Peace in His presence, by Sarah Young
This was sent my way this morning by Sue Raymer. Isaiah 26:7 was one of the passages attached to this devotional. What is interesting is that Isaiah 26 is the chapter that contains verses that I have continually turned back to over the years. Good words for the path I am on right now. Thanks Sue for forwarding this to me.
ISAIAH 26:  In that day this song will be sung in the land of Judah: We have a strong city; God makes salvation its walls and ramparts. Open the gates that the righteous nation may enter, the nation that keeps faith. You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord himself, is the Rock eternal. He humbles those who dwell on high, he lays the lofty city low; he levels it to the ground and casts it down to the dust. Feet trample it down— the feet of the oppressed, the footsteps of the poor.
The path of the righteous is level; you, the Upright One, make the way of the righteous smooth. Yes, Lord, walking in the way of your laws, we wait for you; your name and renown are the desire of our hearts. My soul yearns for you in the night; in the morning my spirit longs for you. When your judgments come upon the earth, the people of the world learn righteousness. But when grace is shown to the wicked, they do not learn righteousness; even in a land of uprightness they go on doing evil and do not regard the majesty of the Lord. Lord, your hand is lifted high, but they do not see it. Let them see your zeal for your people and be put to shame; let the fire reserved for your enemies consume them.
Lord, you establish peace for us; all that we have accomplished you have done for us. Lord our God, other lords besides you have ruled over us, but your name alone do we honor. They are now dead, they live no more; their spirits do not rise. You punished them and brought them to ruin; you wiped out all memory of them. You have enlarged the nation, Lord; you have enlarged the nation. You have gained glory for yourself; you have extended all the borders of the land.
Lord, they came to you in their distress; when you disciplined them, they could barely whisper a prayer. As a pregnant woman about to give birth writhes and cries out in her pain, so were we in your presence, Lord. We were with child, we writhed in labor, but we gave birth to wind. We have not brought salvation to the earth, and the people of the world have not come to life.
But your dead will live, Lord; their bodies will rise—let those who dwell in the dust wake up and shout for joy—your dew is like the dew of the morning; the earth will give birth to her dead.
Go, my people, enter your rooms and shut the doors behind you; hide yourselves for a little while until his wrath has passed by. See, the Lord is coming out of his dwelling to punish the people of the earth for their sins. The earth will disclose the blood shed on it; the earth will conceal its slain no longer.

Thursday, October 17, 2013

We is All Homeless



“I found out everybody’s different – the same kind of different as me. We’re all just regular folks walkin down the road God done set in front of us. The truth about it is, whether we is rich or poor or something in between, this earth ain’t no final restin place. So in a way, we is all homeless – just workin our way toward home”
Denver Moore, Same Kind of Different as Me

Just finished reading this book last night. A great read about how God works in the lives of those He is pursuing with little regard to the things would see as important: money, shelter, education, status, etc. I love that it is a true story, although it felt a bit cleaned up "or Christian" in places. I think true darkness would have allowed more of the true light to be seen, Still a great book overall.

Thanks to Tyler Loomis for recommending this book to Jake Poyner, whose mother Sue then recommended it to me.


Saturday, October 12, 2013

Peace in the Darkness?


And when we want peace – we only need to say yes to God’s purposes.
- Ann Voskamp, A Holy Experience
This makes it sound so easy! I am trusting this is true when all around me there is only darkness, trying to keep saying, "yes" and then holding on for the ride.

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Shadow Work

I am afraid that the closer you get to the Light, the more of your shadow you see. Thus truly holy people are always humble people. Christians could have been done a great service if shadow had been distinguished from sin. Sin and shadow are not the same. We were so encouraged to avoid sin that many of us instead avoided facing our shadow, and we ended up "sinning" even worse--while unaware besides! As Paul taught, "The angels of darkness must disguise themselves as angels of light" (2 Corinthians 11:14). The persona does  not choose to see evil in itself, so it always disguises it as good. The shadow self invariably presents itself as something like prudence, common sense, justice, or "I am doing this for your good," when it is actually manifesting fear, control, manipulation, or even vengeance. Did anyone ever tell you that the name Lucifer literally means the "light bearer"? The evil one always makes darkness look like light--and makes light look like darkness.
Invariably when something upsets you, and you have a strong emotional reaction out of proportion to the moment, your shadow self has just been exposed. So watch out for any overreactions or overdenials. When you notice them, notice also that the cock of St. Peter has just crowed. The reason that a mature or saintly person can be so peaceful, so accepting of self and others, is that there is not much hidden shadow self left. (There is always and forever a little more, however! No exceptions. Shadow work never stops.) This denied and disguised self takes so much energy to face, awaken, and transform all one's life that you ave little time to project your fear, anger, or unlived life onto terrorists, Muslims, socialists, liberals, conservatives, or even hate radio.
FALLING UPWARD, Richard Rohr
Interesting thoughts, especially when he talks how our shadow selves are exposed when we have an overreaction to something that has upset us. That has happens a few times recently and my focus was more on how someone else had hurt me. I wonder now what was being exposed at those times. Definitely room for more thought or perhaps a different direction of thought when it happens the next time.

Monday, September 30, 2013

Michigan Poem

My favorite part is the 5 seasons of Michigan... plus they correctly call us Michi-ganders not Michi-genners.


Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Everyone Loves a Parade

The tragic sense of life is ironically not tragic at all, at least in the Big Picture. Living in such deep time, connected to past and future, prepares us for necessary suffering, keeps us from despair about our own failure and loss, and ironically offers us a way through it all. We are merely joining the great parade of humanity that has walked ahead of us and will follow after us. The tragic sense of life is not unbelief, pessimism, fatalism, or cynicism. It is just ultimate and humiliating realism, which for some reason demands a lot of forgiveness of almost everything. Faith is simply to trust the real, and to trust that God is found within it--even before we change it. This is perhaps our major stumbling stone, the price we must pay to keep the human heart from closing down and to keep the soul open for something more. 
FALLING UPWARD, Richard Rohr

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Mystery and Transformation

There is a deeper voice of God, which you must learn to hear and obey in the second half of life. It will sound an awful lot like the voices of risk, of trust, of surrender, of soul, of “common sense,” of destiny, of love, of an intimate stranger, of your deepest self, of soulful “Beatrice.” The true faith journey only begins at this point. Up to now everything is mere preparation. Finally, we leave a container strong enough to hold the contents of our real life, which is always filled with contradictions and adventures and immense challenges. Psychological wholeness and spiritual holiness never exclude the problem from the solution. If it is wholeness, then it is always paradoxical, and holds both the dark and light sides of things. Wholeness and holiness will always stretch us beyond our small comfort zone. How could they not?    
...it will feel like a loss of faith or loss of self. But it is only the death of the false self, and is very often the very birth of the soul. Instead of being ego driven, you will begin to be soul drawn…  
St. John of the Cross taught that God has to work in the soul in secret and in darkness, because if we fully knew what was happening, and what Mystery/transformation/God/grace will eventually ask of us, we would either try to take charge or stop the whole process. No one oversees his or her own demise willingly, even when it is the false self that is dying.
FALLING UPWARD, Richard Rohr  

I began reading this book last week and it has stirred many questions in me. Am I still in the first half of life? Have the essential questions, "What makes me significant?" "How can I support myself?" and "Who will go with me?" been answered enough to create a proper container in which to start living the second half? It doesn't feel like they have been.

I wonder if I have more of a container than I can see, if believing I don't have the answers to these questions is really a lie? If that is why it feels full of risk, of trust, of surrender?

When I think of it as "falling upward," it feels much more about the "very birth of the soul," and that really challenges my dread and my fear in some of the choices that I need to be making in the near future.

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Isaiah 26:12-15

Lord, you establish peace for us;
    all that we have accomplished you have done for us.
Lord our God, other lords besides you have ruled over us,
    but your name alone do we honor.
They are now dead, they live no more;
    their spirits do not rise.
You punished them and brought them to ruin;
    you wiped out all memory of them.
You enlarged the nation, Lord;
    you have enlarged the nation.
You have gained glory for yourself;
    you have extended all the borders of the land.

These are verses I first read as in high school during a time when I was fighting with my best friend. In those years I was simply caught up by the peace God offered. But over the years these verses have grown with me as I have returned to them over and over. He is about removing anything that rules over us in order to extend his glory.

(Thanks to Renee Neiser Lorincz, my high school volleyball coach who encouraged me to turn to God and the Scriptures when life felt hard)

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Sleepless in Winona Lake

I guess I am not sleeping much tonight... it is 12:09 a.m., I am awake thinking and wondering what the future holds. A different job? different housing? relationships?

A line from Natalie Grant's song Hurricane keeps popping into my head, "Step out on the edge... Don't be afraid of it... And when you feel the rain... Call His name... He'll find you in the hurricane." She wrote the song after reading in Matthew 14 about how Jesus walked on the water during a storm. Jesus chose to walk through the storm. The disciples were afraid and doubted his presence. I am clinging to that truth, that he will reach me in this storm despite my fear and doubts.

What does it mean to walk faithfully in these days of uncertainty? What does it mean to believe that this painful path is the path to life?  Step out on the edge... Don't be afraid of it... Really? Most of the time my focus is on the fear, but perhaps it should be more on the moving. Maybe the difference is made in each single step.

Matthew 14:22-32
22 Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. 23 After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, 24 and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.25 Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.27 But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
28 “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”29 “Come,” he said.Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”32 And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33 Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.” 


Sunday, August 18, 2013

Poverty

Our Poverty, God's Dwelling Place
How can we embrace poverty as a way to God when everyone around us wants to become rich?   Poverty has many forms.  We have to ask ourselves:  "What is my poverty?"  Is it lack of money, lack of emotional stability, lack of a loving partner, lack of security, lack of safety, lack of self-confidence?  Each human being has a place of poverty.  That's the place where God wants to dwell!  "How blessed are the poor," Jesus says (Matthew 5:3).  This means that our blessing is hidden in our poverty.

We are so inclined to cover up our poverty and ignore it that we often miss the opportunity to discover God, who dwells in it.   Let's dare to see our poverty as the land where our treasure is hidden.     (Taken from Henri Nouwen Society's Daily Meditation - August 18, 2013)

By this definition "lack of money, lack of emotional stability, lack of a loving partner, lack of security, lack of safety, lack of self-confidence?" I am extremely impoverished. But, perhaps this is a large opportunity to discover God or a opportunity to discover a large God.

Saturday, August 17, 2013

Clinging to God's Promises

Psalm 31:7-9

I will be glad and rejoice in your love,
    for you saw my affliction
    and knew the anguish of my soul.
You have not given me into the hands of the enemy
    but have set my feet in a spacious place.
Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am in distress;
    my eyes grow weak with sorrow,
    my soul and body with grief.


Jeremiah 29:11-13

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord
    “plans to prosper you and not to harm you
    plans to give you hope and a future. 
Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, 
    and I will listen to you. 
You will seek me and find me 
    when you seek me with all your heart.

Monday, June 17, 2013

Daily Trudging



Love God, your God, with your whole heart; love him with all that's in you, love him with all you've got! (Deuteronomy 6:5)

Trudging through this muck of a life
Despite whatever dark feelings lurk inside
Getting up every day, moving forward
Making the hard choices of faithful living:
Death, Participation and loving.
Death, Brokenness and grace.
Is there beauty in the daily dying?
Beauty formed from all this muck?
Darkness
Darkness
Grace
Grace
Beauty
Hope....


Monday, January 21, 2013

Inaugural Poem 2013

One Today  by Richard Blanco
One sun rose on us today, kindled over our shores,
peeking over the Smokies, greeting the faces
of the Great Lakes, spreading a simple truth
across the Great Plains, then charging across the Rockies.
One light, waking up rooftops, under each one, a story
told by our silent gestures moving behind windows.
My face, your face, millions of faces in morning's mirrors,
each one yawning to life, crescendoing into our day:
pencil-yellow school buses, the rhythm of traffic lights,
fruit stands: apples, limes, and oranges arrayed like rainbows
begging our praise. Silver trucks heavy with oil or paper—
bricks or milk, teeming over highways alongside us,
on our way to clean tables, read ledgers, or save lives—
to teach geometry, or ring-up groceries as my mother did
for twenty years, so I could write this poem.
All of us as vital as the one light we move through,
the same light on blackboards with lessons for the day:
equations to solve, history to question, or atoms imagined,
the "I have a dream" we keep dreaming,
or the impossible vocabulary of sorrow that won't explain
the empty desks of twenty children marked absent
today, and forever. Many prayers, but one light
breathing color into stained glass windows,
life into the faces of bronze statues, warmth
onto the steps of our museums and park benches
as mothers watch children slide into the day.
One ground. Our ground, rooting us to every stalk
of corn, every head of wheat sown by sweat
and hands, hands gleaning coal or planting windmills
in deserts and hilltops that keep us warm, hands
digging trenches, routing pipes and cables, hands
as worn as my father's cutting sugarcane
so my brother and I could have books and shoes.
The dust of farms and deserts, cities and plains
mingled by one wind—our breath. Breathe. Hear it
through the day's gorgeous din of honking cabs,
buses launching down avenues, the symphony
of footsteps, guitars, and screeching subways,
the unexpected song bird on your clothes line.
Hear: squeaky playground swings, trains whistling,
or whispers across café tables, Hear: the doors we open
for each other all day, saying: hello, shalom,
buon giorno, howdy, namaste, or buenos días
in the language my mother taught me—in every language
spoken into one wind carrying our lives
without prejudice, as these words break from my lips.
One sky: since the Appalachians and Sierras claimed
their majesty, and the Mississippi and Colorado worked
their way to the sea. Thank the work of our hands:
weaving steel into bridges, finishing one more report
for the boss on time, stitching another wound
or uniform, the first brush stroke on a portrait,
or the last floor on the Freedom Tower
jutting into a sky that yields to our resilience.
One sky, toward which we sometimes lift our eyes
tired from work: some days guessing at the weather
of our lives, some days giving thanks for a love
that loves you back, sometimes praising a mother
who knew how to give, or forgiving a father
who couldn't give what you wanted.
We head home: through the gloss of rain or weight
of snow, or the plum blush of dusk, but always — home,
always under one sky, our sky. And always one moon
like a silent drum tapping on every rooftop
and every window, of one country — all of us —
facing the stars
hope — a new constellation
waiting for us to map it,
waiting for us to name it — together