By faith I say, "Hallelujah!"

It appears from my limited experience that sometimes there is darkness following a moment of light. This week has felt dark to me following my time of sharing in church last Sunday. It was a moment of vulnerability and joy that was followed by fear and sadness. Doubts have been flooding my mind. I don't want to give gifts to anyone or see people. I feel raw.

Why? Is it just the normal ebb and flow of life? Is it the spirit world? Why does God allow this to happen? Why can't I feel joy for any extended period of time. I would settle for 24 hours at least. This fallen world we live in sucks! I guess that brings it right back to why he came to this earth. To save us from darkness, fear, and anger; to shine light into our world.

"For unto us a child is born, his name is Jesus... Hallelujah!" I say this merely out of faith and not out of what I am currently feeling. I would be more pleased it it felt more exuberant but all the same I hope he is pleased anyway because deep down I believe it to be true.