I needed to leave church early yesterday in order to see my brother's family before they headed back home after the Thanksgiving weekend. I hated to leave before communion was offered but I stayed longer than I should have anyway.
I haven't felt such a deep need to take part of the eucharist in a long time. In part I know it was because my relational sin had been exposed over the past two weeks. Along with that came the realization that this particular sin will probably always plague me which left me feeling desperately in need of God's grace.
I know that I can experience God's grace toward me outside of communion. In fact, I already had experienced grace recently through my two friends to whom my sin was exposed. I didn't deserve their forgiveness but they graciously offered it to me.
Over the years I have come to understand that my sin is ultimately against God. I think I really needed to plead for His forgiveness yesterday and receive communion in the midst of my brokenness. I know this is not limited to a Sunday activity and hope that my desperate need for His grace continues to bother me until I come to that place again.
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